“There is no way to be a perfect mother, and a million ways to be a good one.” – Jill Churchill
Dear Whom this may concern,
Whether you are my subscriber, friend, family member, passer-byer, hater, no one…I felt the need to come from behind my walls and say something. A lot of people have felt the need to speculate what is going on in my life. I say speculate because there is really only two people who know the truth, Kris and myself. Yes we are no longer together and it has been a very difficult time for me. The rumours are flying around like the crazy and the people who start them don’t know the damage it causes. I wish and pray for nothing but my family to be together, but the reality is this is no longer a possibility. It is unfair for people to judge me, and “recommend” how I should change my life to what they think is best for my child. I am doing the best I can without support. It is very difficult for Jude to be without me. He is not exposed to violence or any kind of abuse, Kris and I love our son very much. He is young and is still breastfeeding. He has some medical issues and his doctor commends me for continuing to breastfeed even though it is a daily struggle for me. My back is killing me because he is so heavy. I will do anything for my son’s well being despite any reticule I might face. I do plan to return to school this up coming semester to not only further my education, but to provide myself with a strong successful future for me and my son.
I might not be what everyone compares me to and that’s perfect. I am far from it and packed with flaws but I am doing my very best to keep a positive head on my shoulders so that I can be healthy and happy for my son. Jude is my love, life, light. Before he was alive, Kris was my everything. It was depicted through my blog, Twitter, MySpace, Facebook, and a lot of my YouTube videos. He was a huge reason I started my videos and kept going. Some where along the way things changed, and I had no choice but to except them. It has been hard for me to deal with or break up, but like everything, time will pass and I will get over it. I just ask now, for people to respect our privacy and not add to this hard time. I love Kris and will always care for him because he is the father of my son.
I appreciate the love, support, prayers, and words of encouragement.
-Sonia